Our need for We

Day 594. I've been spending time with my father. He is a fairly recent widower; his wife died, not too long ago. Which means I lost my mother, not too long ago. I am now a motherless child. It was a very good strong marriage, one that lasted for decades and decades and decades. I … Continue reading Our need for We

Starry, starry night

Day 580. "Starry, starry night Flaming flowers that brightly blaze Swirling clouds in violet haze Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue" --Don McLean I found out recently that a beloved grandparent had committed suicide. It happened many, many years ago - but I was just recently told the truth. I completely understand why it … Continue reading Starry, starry night

Feeling empty

Day 578. I don't know who the sculptor is, but this work of art is truly amazing. I love how it captures the feeling of emptiness. The feeling of giving up because there is nothing there. Hollow. Spent. And I remind myself, don't give up. And I think about how close I have come to … Continue reading Feeling empty

Baby, I’m a rocker

Day 574. "Now don't you call James Bond or Secret Agent Man  Cause they can't do it, like I can  I'm a rocker, baby, I'm a rocker ..." --Bruce! Rock 'n roll is a savior for many - it certainly is for me, and an important part of the fabric of my life. You've probably … Continue reading Baby, I’m a rocker

Be here now

Day 571. "It is of no use to sit in a peaceful forest if your mind is lost in the city" Thich Nhat Hanh I often catch myself not staying in the moment. Such a bad habit. Why do I allow my mind to wander instead of staying where I am? It is a waste … Continue reading Be here now

Why you don’t want to relapse

Day 567. Another reason to preserve your sobriety. In this article -- Alcohol Induced Brain Damage Continues During Early Abstinence, it lays out that even six weeks after drinking cessation, a neuroimaging study found there are still changes in the white matter of the brain. In some areas of your health, it takes up to six … Continue reading Why you don’t want to relapse

There is no rewind

Day 560. "There is no rewind, there is only the next decision." --Dr. Glenn Doyle In Dr. Glenn's very, very, very relevant (to me, anyway) post he covers the idea of moving on from ruminating, from regret, from the anger and the bitterness one feels over things that happened - or how they turned out. … Continue reading There is no rewind