“Dear Mr. Fantasy play us a tune
Something to make us all happy
Do anything, take us out of this gloom
Sing a song, play guitar, make it snappy …”
— E. Clapton, S. Winwood
I have this recurring fantasy when ‘this is all over’ and I get back to my ‘normal life’ …. I fantasize uncorking a bottle of red, sinking deep into the sofa and putting on some music. That delightful first sip.
Sigh. Aaah. See! I can do this! I’ve done my time sober – back to my regularly scheduled life. I can drink again!
But you know what? I then start thinking about hangovers, the hard slog of getting this far without a drink, my health – all that- and can admit to myself, actually, no, I don’t *really* want a drink. Just a fantasy …..