I’m in the midst of moving into a cozy lovely little place I can call my own. After an extended period of turmoil and uncertainty, I have a place to call home. Stuff in storage now out of storage. I am sitting here with my stuff all around me. Us humans love our stuff! (Have you heard George Carlin’s hilarious classic riff on ‘stuff’?)
And I am thankful for all of this. Grateful. To be here in this moment, and savouring peace now.
I have made a decision that my little place in this world will be alcohol-free.
I have made a conscious decision that for now I will not have alcohol on the premises.
Why put myself in the cross-hairs of temptation? I’m only three weeks into my sobriety.
I will have some lovely sparkly alcohol-free beverages in the refrigerator, should someone stop by.
I imagine that further down the line, I will manage it if my visitors want to stock the fridge or pantry with adult beverages while visiting. But for now I’m playing it safe.
I come from a long line of animal lovers – and most of my life I’ve always had furry companions of all walks of life (cats, dogs, rats, rabbits, guinea pigs, chinchillas, etc.), and have been involved in rescue for years.
After a long period of time animal-free, I’ve recently adopted two cats in desperate need of homes – and the purring alone is such a tonic and gift. I missed having this kind of company.
I realise my life at this time is quiet (good), un-frantic (good) – but actually just a little too people-free. I’ve come to understand that I love people, I love the buzz. My workplace is multigenerational, and it’s such fun to be around all age groups. I imagine it’s quite bad for your health as you get older to become sequestered away from all that buzzy human interaction. I’m not going to let that happen to me.
One of my goals for 2018 is to put myself out there more, get involved in group activities. In the last dozen years, I’ve spent way less time in public and socialising, than I used to.
My problem drinking developed when I was in a ad space of not being home alone – but feeling home alone. Perfect cocktail for problem drinking to mushroom way out of control.
I’ve been reading that you need a support system when you are becoming sober. Otherwise it’s most likely to be a failed effort. There aren’t really any AA groups in this area, so I need to find other ways of building a healthy community network for myself.
I checked out Meetup.com. You set up a profile based on your location, so you can see what’s happening in your area. So many diverse groups – even in this little backwater place I now live in. Vegan meet ups, film lovers meet ups, sobriety meet ups, comedy club meet ups. You name it! Oh, and think about this, I say to myself – you could start a group yourself. Nothing stopping you!
And there are so many things to do, and groups to spend time with, that don’t involve alcohol.